Patterns of thought or behavior are difficult to eliminate or modify. I find as I age, I have to watch extra-carefully while doing something I have done many times before. When I deviate from my usual pattern, it can almost feel a little painful at times. I sometimes find that something I normally do is not a good idea. Maybe it never was and maybe aging or new understanding has given me a good reason to be different. But seeing myself being different is often quite different from being actually on the new track I am aiming for. Even when I have a good reason to change, the established procedure can pull at me and I have to stay conscious of the new one I am trying to establish.
