Feeling dissipated and disorganized. I am interested in writing this blog, keeping up with friendships, keeping the lawn cut, trimming the grass around beds, and trees. I can call a halt to anything at any time but that is not the goal. The goal is to have everything done right all the time. I know where my goals and my schedule come from: me! I don't think I have overdone my plans. In fact, they may be underdone.
My time use seems similar to my running. I keep reading that running, even such slow jogging that can hardly be distinguished from walking, is good for me: heart, lungs, legs. I haven't checked but I am confident that some of my "running" is actually slower than my fast walking. So, while dutifully getting a run into my day, I am trying to avoid deciding that I have aged enough that it is no longer important. Just moving about may now be about the right challenge. I don't actually think so but maybe.
Maybe I am not so disorganized. Maybe I am using my time "appropriately". Maybe this and maybe that. I can already see my friend's comments to "lighten up" but I don't want to lighten up. I want to win, to be on target, to be praiseworthy in my own eyes and in those of others.
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Bill
Main blog: Fear, Fun and Filoz
Main web site: Kirbyvariety
